I don't know what to expect about this year, for one thing it will be a whole new experience in terms of our studies. We are going around hospital this year and focusing on General Medicine, Psychiatry, Geriatrics/Musculoskeletal and Surgery in different hospitals around Perth. I'm excited but also a little daunted about the prospect, considering our first 3 weeks we learn catherisation, phlebotomy and a number of basic skills which we start off learning by practicing on ourselves. But when i think about it what is the thing that daunts me? The prospect of hurting someone with the needle or not being confident enough to use the needles? i can get over these little fears, i am going to become a doctor, it may seems daunting like the first time we had a diabetes lab and had to prick ourselves with lancets to get blood sample, but its all a step wise progression to the bigger practical parts we will learn as we go further. I am halfway to becoming a doctor, we've done 3 years of theory now its time to put some theory into practice! It will be a steep learning curve to adapt to the clinical practice but it will be rewarding too. It will get hard but i will push through.
Other things are different this year too. I have moved up through the Trinity facilities and now being in my fourth year am sharing a unit with my friend also studying med. This is exciting as its like a step towards moving out of college, we have a kitchen to cook meals when we like and a living area and a TV! We get along well together and talk through any little differences, we have been through 3 years of med together and i have no doubt we will go through our many years of doctoring ahead together.
I feel a little lost though with what this year will bring. I have my goals and resolutions i will try to achieve, i have an amazing boyfriend who i hope to spend more time with, i have my running and fitness goals which i know i will work to achieve but i also have fear. Last year i took on the role of being Trinity community and environment resident adviser which gave me amazing opportunities and was a great experience, and while it was what i have always wanted to do and is what i believe in in terms of helping the environment and community, the role was not me. I am quite an independent person, and while i value helping others and everyone around me, i learnt that in that role i took on i helped others too much. While that sounds selfish it is not. I also need to take care of myself, look after all aspect of my life including family, friends, my boyfriend, my general health and fitness and of course my mind. I don't want to make the same mistakes as i did last year. I thought it was going to be the year of my life, and it was, but not in the way i thought it would be and i learnt lots. But its OK to have a little bit of fear because fear is what enables us to realise the value of the things around us and in our life. While i'm scared of the immediate future, i'm also scared of the more distant future. It's so hard to know what is going to happen and how everything will turn out. All i can do is give everything and everyone my all, be myself, put my fear to the side and believe things happen for a reason and believe in my life.
Chapter Four, lets see what you will bring.
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