Friday, August 24, 2012

My Training Slump - Choosing paths

I had a little flop last night, i was able to make it to the Friday training session at the track with JME and i was looking forward to it as usual but felt an inkling that i wasn't up to it. I hadn't run since last Saturday (nearly a week) but my foot was still quite sore from biking and cross trainer work throughout the week. I managed to do 3 x 300m runs around 53sec pace but on the fourth i couldn't do it and had to pull up... stupid foot!! It has gotten worse and now has some nerve entrapment. How am i suppose to train and run at uni games in 4 weeks if it is getting worse when i am only running once a week?? I got a little upset when i had to stop and walked around the track for a while on the grass. The group was supportive and gave me things to try, most of what i have already tried without much success. They said maybe i could not run for 4 weeks leading up to uni games and wing it, just see what happens with the fitness i have. I have to admit i feel slow and unfit in terms of running/sprints and being the goal setter that i am would feel deflated if i went and was thrashed by the other runners, i would enjoy it if i had some sort of chance especially after all the work i have put into my fitness whilst trying to not hurt my foot... unsuccessfully. I have lost my motivation at the moment and don't know what to do. I have put in lots of work but its not the work i need to improve my running or at least get back speed i have lost over the past year and a half since athletics season of 2010/11. I missed last season and was ready to get back into it on a high this season/summer coming starting with uni games. Can i still do it? Do i still have the motivation and determination to do it? I was so keen to try the 400m hurdles this season and break 4 minutes 40 sec for the 1500m which is what i have wanted to do for a few years now, this was going to be my season coming. But now what is more important, uni games or the summer season? Can i do both? Is this a sign i need to have a break and not do uni games to reach my goals for the summer athletics season? Or is this just a nuisance which should not stop me from getting the uni games experience in Adelaide? I feel at a loss, it was horrible going to the gym today and lacking motivation and not enjoying it, it wasn't me! I have 4 weeks until uni games... what shall i do?

Option 1: not run for 4 weeks and try keep up fitness with bike riding and swimming and 'wing it' at uni games and go more for the enjoyment, But will i enjoy it not being able to run well??

Option 2: Cancel uni games and get my foot better with NO RUNNING for a few months and no pressure on myself and have a better chance of doing athletics over summer for the 2012/2013 season

OR either option one or two and try a new sport over summer, but what??

Which path to choose...

A budding surgeon?? Surgery Week 1

I always thought i wouldn't like surgery, i have this perception of surgeons as a 'fleeting' doctor in patients lives, not getting to know the patient or becoming very involved in their process of healing and health at all. Someone has the air of 'god' and knows it and as such is not liked by other doctors. I perceived surgeons as more heartless than others, just wanting to 'chop' patients and not considering other options as though the other doctors have done that and hence the last option is to operate. But this past week has proven me wrong, but i guess that is an exciting part about hospital experience :)

Surgeons are very much still human, they like to get to know their patients, they can be more kind and caring than doctors of other specialities that i know and they certainly do not simply 'chop' without looking at other options first, that is why patients have come to them for a surgical REVIEW not an necessarily an operation right away. There is so much involved with pre-operation checks and assessments in every system of the body to prepare the patient for surgery and correct systemic conditions as best as possible to allow the patient to get through a surgical procedure or become well enough to enable no surgery to take place and therefore not exposing the patients to the risks associated with the surgery. Patients trust surgeons with their life, more than they can trust other doctors, after all you are basically saying to a surgeon 'knock me out and take control' which in many surgeries involves letting medications and machinery control your breathing, heart rate and blood pressure... the vitals which enable you to live. And surgeons are extremely good at it i can see why they can be regarded as 'part god'.

The team i am attached to for the first 4 weeks is a vascular team.Already i have learnt lots about lower limb vascular diseases and examinations and diseases of the vessels. On my first day, Monday, we met the doctors who are thankfully extremely nice and very open to teaching us!! (we are lucky compared to other teams where their doctors barely make eye contact with the students) Myself and another student who had done his scrub session too followed our consultant to a surgery and watched a carotid endartectomy where a major blood vessel to the brain was occluded 80-90% on the right so very little blood flow was getting through. What is amazing is how the surgeons were able to open the vessel, cut out the blockage and suture it back up with minimal blood loss!! They clamped the vessel initially as the other 3 vessels can usually supply enough blood to the head for the duration of the surgery but not in this patient her pressure was too low even when they pumped up her systemic pressure to 200 systolic. So they had to unclamped and very quickly make cuts in the vessel to put in a stent around what was to be repaired/unblocked. With blood under high pressure coming off the heart there were a few squirts of blood which surprised me as they shot across the room (i found out why they were wearing eye gear then :P).
Of course this added extra difficulty when taking out the stent and suturing the vessel back up again and in the pressuring times where there was the risk of major bleeds or failed closure i admired the surgeons ability to stay so calm, yes he had done many surgeries before but i liked how he would hum this one tune over which he worked quickly and efficiently in the more pressuring parts, so cool, calm and collected. I was able to talk to the patient the next day and see how she was going. I found it amazing to think i had seen the textbook anatomy in her neck and seen what had been done and knowing how this will improve her life.

On Wednesday i was able to go to the Cath lab and watch an operation through glass which was apparently the 2nd one to be done in the world!! It was a patient who had a dissecting aortic arch from the heart and they had to put in a stent. To do this they went in through the femoral artery (in the groin) and one from her brachial artery (in her arm) and met at her heart feeding the wires into place and making sure they didn't put the stent over blood vessel openings particularly over the carotids to her head!! To get the stent in place they had to 'stop' her heart. To do this they would put her heart rate up to 250-300 beats per minute so her heart was not contracting properly but sort of 'vibrating' on the spot to stop the blood flow and turbulence. This was only for 10second periods at most then her normal heart beat and blood flow was restored. It was amazing to watch, they had 'TVs' up with the imaging of the heart/chest so we could see where the stent and wires were for their placement and they would inject dye to check the blood flow and to see the vessels better for any occlusions.
An example of an angiogram of the aortic
arch and a visualizing a stent
(NOTE these images are
from the internet)
I was fortunate enough to have a great chat to a lady next to me who i found out was a training surgeon on maternity leave, she was so enthusiastic about giving us information and talking through the procedure it was great! She also started talking about her decision to have time off her training to have a family, many people told her it meant she did not want to be a surgeon and she didn't have the dedication (mainly men who do not have to worry about the impact of having a child!) which is just silly!! Just because she wanted to be a surgeon did not mean she had to sacrifice having a family. She has the rest of her life to be a surgeon and cannot have children forever. She also said she does not want to be a working mum who does not spend time with her children and is able to balance her medical career with being a mother. The rest of her surgery training will come later but for now she is caring for her children but still assisting on the odd surgeries and learning from watching others such as this one, a good way to go :) I told myself 'See? even a surgeon can balance a good family life!!' after all, we are women, we stick to our missions and we are very good at multi-tasking ;)

A fun fact i learnt from her which i feel i should have already known... when they do kidney transplants they leave the dying kidney inside the patient!! The body just deals with it naturally and all it does is shrink without doing any harm! I learn something new everyday :P

So 1 week down and 7 weeks to go and my initial ideas of this surgery rotation have been squished. I have really enjoyed my first week, i am lucky to be in a great team of both doctors and medical students, i find the surgeries and medicine so interesting and exciting and can't wait to see more next week and i love wearing scrubs! ;) Although i wonder whether i would have the confidence to be a surgeon, (and whether every theatre would have a stool for me to stand on) maybe there is more surgeon in me than i originally thought?

Saturday, August 18, 2012

Bliss Balls

Inspired by a recipe from a health cook book i had a go at making my own 'Bliss balls', healthy snacks and great for pre and post exercise or just to satisfy your hunger throughout the day!

1/2 cup almond meal
1/2 cup almonds
2/3 cup walnuts
1/4 cup pistachio's
1 cup dates
1/2 cup shredded coconut
2 teaspoons cacao powder
1 tsp vanilla essence
2 Tablespoons organic peanut butter
1/4 cup natural Greek yoghurt

Method

Combine almonds, walnuts and pistachio's in a food processor until they resemble breadcrumbs and mix in a large bowel with almond meal.
Combine dates and coconut in food processor (it will be hard to get these very fine and are still good chunky!) then add to the processor the vanilla essence, peanut butter, yoghurt and cacao powder until mixed.
Add to the nuts and mix until combined.
Roll balls in coconut or chopped nuts and enjoy! :)

You could add any nuts you like to this recipe, or any other ingredient really! I was addicted to the dates, coconut and vanilla essence alone and may simplify the recipe without the cacao next time. I added some yoghurt in case the mixture wasn't moist enough but they would have been fine without the yoghurt and may lbe kept for longer without it. I am storing mine in the fridge and freezing some for later :)

Sunday trip to the beach :)

I love being home when Bella and Lucy have their Sunday trips to the beach, they have so much energy down there and love the freedom! It was another beautiful Sunday morning and they sure felt it :)
Off with mummy and daddy :)
Don't you love my cute little nose??
Love Bella's little tongue
Zoom Zoom Lucy!

Getting puffed...

Until next time Bunbury beach :)

Banana Blueberry wholemeal muffins and the 5 minute Mug Brownie :)

Banana Blueberry wholemeal muffins (no added sugar) 
  • 2 medium bananas mashed
  • 1 peeled and grated green apple
  • 1 egg
  • ½ cup (125ml) water
  • 125ml vegetable oil
  • 2 cups (250g) wholemeal flour
  • 1 tsp cinnamon 
  • 1 teaspoon bi-carb soda
  • 2¼ teaspoons baking powder
  • 1 cup fresh or frozen blueberries

Preparation method

Prep: 15 minutesCook: 15 minutes

Week break number 2

Laugh With Health CoverThis week break was more enjoyable than the last, and now it is almost over again. I feel like i have finally caught up on some much needed sleep and not waking up at 5.30/6am has been bliss :) It has been a good week at home with lots of cooking - macaroons, pumpkin soup, 2 lots of muffins, chicken penne and brownies, swimming, spending way too much at the health food shop! But mum has introduced me to organic pepita seeds and i found a spirulina slice which is yum! I had a little splurge and bought a book called 'Laugh with Health' which as it describes is an ultimate guide to eating healthy and gives information on the benefits of certain foods and when they are good for the different systems of the body, i can't wait to read more!

Mum and I had a short trip to Busselton to visit nan and pop for afternoon tea. It turned into more of an x-ray session as they showed me all their latest ones for shoulder and spine issues but afterwards was great to just chat with them over tea and scones and a few macaroons :) I was excited being there for my future 'hood' for 2013! Mum and i were sussing out the coffee shops, bike paths, markets, the recreation centre and of course the hospital and general practice's i will be working in next year!! I just wish i could have driven past my future house but have no idea where it is yet. Mum traced down our family heritage which i want to remember.
My family blood...
Nan - Scottish and West Indian
Pop - Estonian
Pop and Nan Esperance - English

X-rays... i know what i'm looking at :P
I had a lovely catch up with a friend from school, it was great to see her with her quite new little family of nearly 2 years and the other 3 months old. She is such a wonderful mum you can see it right away! It makes me look forward to the years ahead when i can have my own family one day, i almost wish it could come sooner but i have chosen the path of university first, one day :) I wish we could catch up more though i miss seeing her! I also had a catch up session with my Uni mentor/doctor which was great to talk through challenges and progress throughout our first year in the hospitals so far. I find my mentor gives great feedback and valuable advice particularly on a balanced lifestyle and not all study and is very encouraging to me for the future which is always a positive lift :)
I found this picture of us a few years ago one Australia Day maybe 2008? i couldn't resist! 
Mum and I watched the movie Julie and Julia about a girl in her 30's who challenges herself to cook all the recipes in a French cook book in a year, it is a funny and inspiring movie we both really like it! Of course there was some research study and a discussion section to write which was due on Friday and another relief to have that done. I was lucky to be home for Bella and Lucy's 8th birthday and while Bella had a macaroon, Lucy had a 5 minute mud brownie cooked in the microwave, i think they both had a nice day! :) I look forward to having a trip to the beach with them tomorrow morning before i head back to Perth.



And now it is time to head back to Perth to start our last rotation for this year - 8 weeks of Surgery. I hope it goes well and i keep on top of things, i think it is going to be a very hectic last rotation as so many other events are on at this time of year not to mention i have a week off for uni games so need to get all my assignments done! Then OSCE's and exams.... i think i'll take it week by week first but better keep that study in mind. For now i will enjoy my last relaxing night home by the fire for a while with a hot drink of cacao and a delicacy of orange and creme brulee lindt chocolate all the way from Switzerland!

Dear Foot - 37 days til uni games

Dear foot,

I am sorry for the amount of pushing, pressuring and hammering you receive to keep me on my feet and flying through the air. I try stretching you, massaging you, giving you heat therapy and strapping you but i must push you too hard as this is not working. Please accept my apology and accept my care i am trying to give you so i can run again, or else tell me what you need so you can get better and we can get back to doing what we were meant to do and love to do - RUN! we have some unfinished business to do and i would be forever so so grateful!

Please heal soon.

Love, the rest of Janelle's body.

Well it is only 37 days to go until university games and i am sad to say i am not in the shape i would like to be. It is hard with plantar fasciitis!! I was hoping it would be so much better now, on a positive i can walk the next day after running training but i am only running once a week, how will i go for 4 days straight of running competition and wearing spikes?? Will i even be fit enough to run 2x 800m, 2x1500m, 2x400m and 2 lots of relays? Will i have enough fitness to do OK in these events against the other runners around Australia? It is so hard to tell at the moment, i have been sticking to cross trainer, bikes, rowers and swimming but it is not enough. I have loved the once a week training at the Track with the JME group, they are inspiring training with them all and although so much faster than me in the sprints give me motivation to keep going. I would feel better if i was a little fitter at the moment but need to have a time trial of myself to better see where my fitness is at. I think its safe to say the 400m hurdles at Uni games is no longer a possibility unless a miracle happens but i will save that for the summer once i get this foot better!!!

I saw the podiatrist today and he re-strapped my foot, i may have some nerve entrapment so will be getting an ultrasound in Perth in the coming weeks to assess. He recommended altering my orthotics but because they need to be sent away i wont do that until after uni games and keep icing, stretching, massaging and strapping my foot and being careful. If need be i could get a corticosteroid injection for the week of uni games but i don't want to do that. I would like to try run at least twice a week from now on wards and see how it goes, fingers crossed!! I will try hard to get to uni games and be as fit as i can be and enjoy the trip, and will have my sights set on the coming summer athletics season to reach the goals i have always wanted to get once this foot is better...

My Revised goals for the coming 2012/2013 athletics season

1. Break 4.40 minutes for the 1500m and qualify for Nationals in April 2013 
2. Break 2.19min for the 800m
2. Break 59sec for the 400m
3. Learn the 400m Hurdles - compete in Strive competition and get under 1.10min 

ette I had a little session at the runners club today and was excited to wear my spikes and new inserts for the first time in a while! I was a little deflated at how much speed i have lost and wonder if it is possible to get enough back in 5 weeks. Hopefully my foot wont be too sore tomorrow but we will see. On a side note i saw a long time friend at the track who is excited to be making a comeback to athletics after a few years, it felt like old times with both of us at the track! Maybe it is a sign to keep going... it would be amazing to train together again over summer :)

My saying of the week - I chose to be strong and i choose to take control