As the days start to get busy again i know i will be writing less frequent in here but that does not mean my determination to reach my goals has diminished! Only 5 more days until i move back to Perth/college and start the next semester - semester 2 of year 3! I am determined to make it different from the last, better, and it will be.
When i was younger, i use to have these amazing dreams that i was flying. Not a very unique dream but it was the dream i loved to have. They felt so real! and they were good dreams. When i flew, i guess you could say i flew to be a sort of super hero, someone who only flew to save people from something bad, to pick them up off the ground and bring them away from their troubles. The dreams became less frequent as i became busier, but i always which for the dreams to come back as they really lifted me up spiritually and psychologically and made me believe that anything is possible. And what's more, that i was on the right path and by helping people i was doing more than lifting myself up in life but giving others the chance to fly also.
I would mostly channel the power the dreams gave me into running. To me running is the equivalent of flying, when you run you feel like you fly as your feet barely touch the ground and you go as fast as you can with the wind flowing past your body. It is bliss, it is my freedom. Now with my medical studies and community and environment work, flying has more than one meaning. But the freedom and exhilaration of flying when i run is the driver for my life and reflects my motivation for life whether the dreams are there or not.
Lately, the dreams have been coming back, but they are different. Instead of flying to help people and do good to others, I am flying to get away from something bad. Mostly I am being chased and scared. In the dreams there are points where I can’t fly and I become scared thinking ‘what has happened? Why can’t I do this anymore?’ But I am able to get off the ground just enough to be out of reach and out of harm’s way. On one occasion another person, a friend was involved and I could not pick them up like before so we had to resort to a car.
So what is this telling me? To me I am starting anew. I am running from the fear I have had and I am learning to fly again. I am bringing up my past power and am reminding myself of who I really am and how I truly want to be – strong, fighting and free. Soon I hope I will be able to fly fully again and not running away from my own troubles but again helping others with their own. I have never known my dreams to be such a real representative of my life. I never thought what the dreams of flying years ago would come back to help me realize what I need to do and how I need to change, both psychologically and physically, to have my strong mind and strong body back after a tough past 6 months. Thank you dreams.
So in terms of my running, the day off was much needed on Thursday and yesterday I went for a 30 minute (5-6km) run in the morning before we had the 7 hour drive back to Bunbury. Followed by a walk in the afternoon when we arrived home. Today was a 30 minute run (approx. 5-6km), 20 minute walk then 20 minutes on the cross trainer with 11x10sec sprints then some arm weights. I wont keep writing my meals as it is my guide for if i am getting 80/20 and a healthy diet. I can still cut back on the sweets a little and it will be better once i get back into a routine and not going everywhere over the holidays andmaking do with what i have.
I am so excited to have registered for the city to surf 12km on Thursday night! I put myself in the challenge and registered in ‘Wave 1A’ for the 48-62 minute category. Last year and the year before I was in C and weaved myself through everyone. I didn’t mind though as I would pick people in front as targets to reach and go faster, then once I got to them I would pick someone else. It will be interesting to be up closer to the front this year! On a good note, while i am a little sore still in the quads from running again, i feel like i am slowly getting fitness back! Well considering i have only been running for 5 days it must be coming back quickly so i better watch i am not over doing it and will stay away from overuse injuries! ... and honky nuts :P
p.s. i love new running shoes - asics nimbus gel = love. So much that i will show you a picture of my old and new pair! :)
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